It's hurt but I have to accept this. I have to try my best to accept this. It was my mistake and I have to face this. I know, someday, this feeling will go away. Time will help me to change everything. Everything will change, I just have to be patient. For this time, I will just enjoy this feeling. Allah is always with me. This is one of Allah's test to make me stronger. I know, Allah maha-pengasih :')